I would say I'm doing well with my monthly goals again. I think I just might keep this idea going. Keeps my perspective in check when I'm slipping.
I've worked hard on accountability, but I think I've gotten caught up to the expectations placed on myself. I am accepting my faults and looking at the real reasons why I'm not getting things done when I think I should have. It is generally because I am stopping to enjoy life. Aside from diving head first into a book and getting lost for a few days (which definitely qualifies as time for me), I've been quite productive. And if I'm being entirely honest, the things I haven't completed on time have been due to enjoying my life, not being lazy on the couch with the TV on.
I addressed some areas in need of improvement with the Trucker. Not things he needs to change, but things I've noticed I have changed and I discussed some of it with him. If he understands my motives, he can support me better, and if he thinks I'm off my rocker I can reassess and make a different change.
Another side of staying accountable is with work. My annual review is coming up, so I have had to take a realistic look at my last year. It's been a rough year, hasn't it? You have followed me down my dark hole and are witnessing my climb back out. I'm not sure exactly where I would rate my performance. I've been okay, but not spectacular. I'm not accustomed to just meeting expectations for work, I've always been one to exceed them. I'm the one who took work home when I didn't have to. I'm the one who took on extra tasks, helped others, trained others, constantly looked for ways to improve. But in some ways, because everything looked so dark, I'm not sure exactly how that translated into my assignments. I'm not sure if my work was weak or if I just felt that way, you know? This week will be a good one for determining where I stand.
I am sleeping better. I've been getting to bed at a decent time. That has also meant less time online, which accounts for my lapses in posting here. But my health has to come first. And as I get closer to healthy, I have more time all around. It sure feels good to have decent sleep in me.
Reading with the kids hasn't been consistent, but play has. The Trucker doesn't like to read (I just can't even start to comprehend this, how can anyone NOT like reading?) and the kids do. So, I will do whatever it takes to keep them encouraged and challenged with reading. When I think of how I completely left this world to join the world of the Hunger Games last weekend, I know that I want my kids to have the same feeling of escape from reality as they get older too. I guess, instead of reading out loud with them I have been reading beside them. At the same times as them. I'm showing my interest in their reading and we are talking about our books.
So, it's not a missed goal, it's just a bit different.
And, as I'm trying so hard to remind myself, change is OK. Change is good. I don't HAVE to be perfect. I just have to be PRESENT.
November will be here soon, I need to start looking at the next round of goals. I'm so glad you're here, sharing this with me. Have you set any goals of your own?